Don’t make stuff because you want to make money—it will never make you enough money. And don’t make stuff because you want to get famous—because you will never feel famous enough. Make gifts for people—and work hard on making those gifts in the hope that those people will notice and like the gifts.
Maybe they will notice how hard you worked, and maybe they won’t—and if they don’t notice, I know it’s frustrating. But, ultimately, that doesn’t change anything—because your responsibility is not to the people you’re making the gift for, but to the gift itself.
– John Green
The work is the thing. If you do not enjoy it, if you would not enjoy it if it never became something “more,” then you might be happier if you didn’t do the work at all.
You might be happier not writing. You might be happier doing something else, giving up, and letting go. You might not really want to write. Or rather, you might want to write, but you haven’t the need.
Writing is a lonely, ego-busting venture. It is a self-fulfilling prophecy. Becoming successful at writing will only mean you spend more time alone. More time doubting yourself. Creating more opportunity for others to discover you’re a sham.
Writing is loneliness manifested. It is sitting in a room, with no one to speak to, locked away from your loved ones and beloved things. It’s not even petting the cat because he wants out of that room, too. It’s your husband asking, “Can you sit with me tonight?” It’s your child afraid to knock on the door. It’s your neighbor asking, “Are you okay? We haven’t seen you in a while.”
It’s a horrible thing to do every day if you don’t need to do it.
And yet, it’s everything when it works.
- It’s finding the perfect words to end a scene.
- It’s the perfect hook that gets people to read your article.
- It’s the unexpected plot turn.
- It’s sharing new information, new science, new philosophy.
- It’s opening someone’s eyes.
- It’s sharing someone’s heart.
- It’s making a difference in someone’s life.
It’s being alone in that room and cheering for yourself because you know beyond a doubt that you got it right. And even tomorrow when you re-read those words – when you think, “Did I really write that? That’s good!” – deep inside you’ll acknowledge the words came from you and nobody else. Because they couldn’t come from anyone else. They are you, right there on the page.
Don’t seek to write because you want to publish a book, because you want to sell a book, or because you are trying to sell yourself. Don’t write because of what you think it will turn you into. Write because it’s who you are now. Write because it makes you better at being you.
To put our faith in tangible goals would seem to be, at best, unwise. So we do not strive to be firemen, we do not strive to be bankers, nor policemen, nor doctors. WE STRIVE TO BE OURSELVES.
But don’t misunderstand me. I don’t mean that we can’t BE firemen, bankers, or doctors—but that we must make the goal conform to the individual, rather than make the individual conform to the goal. In every man, heredity and environment have combined to produce a creature of certain abilities and desires—including a deeply ingrained need to function in such a way that his life will be MEANINGFUL. A man has to BE something; he has to matter.”
– Hunter S. Thompson
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